Like a Game
Sometimes people can lie and change their minds, their actions show their true character.
If someone talks about how much they care and their actions don't match what they say, then this person's word should mean nothing to you.
It would always be like a game to him.
We would be on a bench after it rained and if he heard something he didn't like, he could use an umbrella to hit me and laugh about it afterwards.
The 'play fighting' while we were outside that he always started. I would come home and lie to my mom about how I got the bruises on my arms.
I'm claustrophobic, after a scary movie he tried different ways to scare me and remembered that about me, so he turned off all the lights and put me in a closet. He held it closed and left me there for a long time while I kept yelling to let me out.
The wrestling, that would start off as a game and then all of a sudden it would get more aggressive. When I tried to pull away, he brought me back in and put my neck between his thighs. I could feel the air escaping from me and I tried to yell my friend's name in the next room, he loosened his grip on my neck and said " Do you think I can't take him?" He continued threatening my friend's safety so I stayed quiet.
The towel he used after he showered and he played a game where he would chase me to whip me with it but I yelled for him to stop when it started to hurt, then I was cornered and the whipping continued, my hand swelled up, I started to cry and he replied "Do you really think your tears are going to stop me?" so I learned not to cry because bullies thrive off of negative reactions so I couldn't give him the satisfaction. I learned to stay silent and just take the abuse.
I now know that this is not the right way to defeat a bully. Tell anyone who will listen to your situation until you find someone or even better a group of people that will help you.